You Take the Good, You Take the Bad.......

Well, I went and saw my apartment for the first time yesterday. It has not been cleaned yet, and there are even still some of the old tenants stuff on the deck. By the looks of the stuff, and the condition of the apartment, it was a male who might not have cared too much about keeping things clean. I don't like it when landlords show you an apartment that is still funky from the previous owner. It gives me a first impression that is hard to shake. The apartment doesn't really have a ton of windows, so it's on the darker side, and couple that with the dirtiness, I was trying to mask my horror. I have to admit that my time in Seattle so far has been a let down, and I am starting to question my decision. I am on the spontaneous/impulsive side, so I am wondering did I put enough thought into this? What was I thinking, Seattle is beyond expensive, and I am not in the higher income bracket. I have to be honest, fear is all I've been feeling for the past 48 hours or so. If it were just me, I would maybe be less scared, but I have living beings who are depending on me to provide a decent home and food. I am not too picky about apartments, I've never really been able to afford to be picky. But with the rent that I will be paying, I did expect much more. There is a sink randomly outside of the bathroom, just sitting there(it works?!) There is also a sink in the bathroom, so I guess it's perfect for when multiple people need to wash their hands at the same time. ????? Anyway, motel/hotel living is getting to me, and seeing this dingy apartment didn't really provide the hope I was looking for. The landlord said the maintenance crew would be fixing it up the next day(today) so hopefully it will look fresh and sparkly and I will be able to forget all about what I saw yesterday. Unfortunately I'm sure the random sink will remain. I guess I just have to consider it a charming quirk??  I also am having a very hard time dealing with non-vegans as dining companions. I tried to approach the topic yesterday, and I was told I wasn't respecting other choices. It's a touchy subject, and I dislike having to deal with it. I deserve respect as much as anyone else, so I think we just have to not eat meals together, unless it's a vegan meal. I don't want to watch or smell someone eating meat. It bothers me more than I even let on, because I don't want to come off as a judgmental vegan, and turn anyone off from this way of life. So, struggles are real, no matter where you live, or what you do to try to fix what is broken.
On a more positive note, I found my beloved Chao cheese at Safeway of all places. Safeway is not Whole Foods or Trader Joe's. It was sitting there waiting for me right next to Field Roast deli slices! I picked up some wild mushroom slices, and they are super savory and yum! I also found a jar of Just Mayo garlic mayo!!! Did anyone know this stuff existed? I did not, and let me tell you something, I was missing out! I made a sandwich with Chao original, wild mushroom slices, and a schmear of garlic mayo and wow!! Take that Subway! I found the mayo for under two dollars at Safeway, which is such a steal for vegan mayo! In my opinion, Just Mayo is the cheapest, and tastiest vegan mayo available! And I 200% guarantee that no one would ever guess this is vegan mayo! I also have seen Kombucha in almost every store I've been in!  I bought another new to me brand, Townshend's Tea Company kombucha. I love the little stout bottles! I chose the Superberry flavor, which has currants, elderberries, rosehip, and hibiscus, along with oolong tea and organic sugar. I just took my first sip, and just like the Lion Heart  Kombucha, this is on the drier side. I always thought I liked sweeter brews, but I'm starting to question everything. I can really taste the elderberry, or maybe the currants, and it doesn't have a strong vinegar taste. It's very fizzy which I also enjoy. I have lots to think about when it comes time for me to start brewing my own again! It's nice to know that there is a high demand for kombucha, that means I can drink it in public without getting weird looks, and possible teasing! Woot. I'm still scared shitless, but I guess a weirdly placed sink is worth not getting constantly teased for my food and beverage choices. I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what the future holds, but having Chao and many different types of Kombucha readily available is pretty awesome!
Are you spontaneous, or do you plan for your life?