How funny is it that I came across this video yesterday, right after I had blogged about the dreaded clothes shopping! If you have three or four minutes, you should watch this! And I love that Lena Dunham is in the clip, I love her!! That sales lady in the skit reminds me of all of the snobby woman that work at make up counters in department stores. I loathe walking by them, I always feel judged for my lack of make up and hair doing. Like I'm just so uncivilized and icky or something.
|Thrift cardigan I love cardigans sooo much, I could be Miss Rogers!|
|Half thrift, part Old Navy|
And yes, the skirt is the exact same skirt I had bought before, and returned. But yesterday it was an extra thirty percent off! Woot Woot! I tried on a million pairs of shorts and skirts and dresses at Value Village, and the only things that fit were NOT my style at all. I'm may be a minimalist and not overly concerned with fashion, but I'm also not trying to look like a grandma vacationing in Palm Springs either! So, I feel okay about my choice. I know I could go to other thrift stores, but for right now trying on clothes is somewhat traumatic, and I just want to be done with fitting rooms, and mirrors and all of that for awhile. Because I had an official Oprah light bulb moment yesterday when I was walking home. I realized that I need to get a grip. I need to either accept and love my body, or step up my game and change things, because obviously I've been stuck where I am for quite some time. And I realized that love and acceptance it is, because I'm not willing to do more than what I'm doing for an awesome bod! I sincerely believe that I am healthier than I've ever been in regards to my relationship with food. I eat unprocessed food eighty five to ninety percent of the time, and I leave room for some vegan treats. And I like to have some chocolate before bed. I'm not willing to give up chocolate, and I'm not willing to try something like living salt free or anything like that. And, in terms of exercise, I have really stepped up my workout game, and I walk at least one mile a day, often times more like between two and five miles a day. I try to avoid public transportation as much as possible.
I've unsubscribed to a few vegan YouTube channels that I have enjoyed, but in the end they really kind of trigger my eating disorder feelings. When I see someone who is already much thinner than me cutting out one thing after another because she wants to have a perfect lean body, when She's already lean just is not good for my way of thinking. I felt bad about food for soooooo many years of my life, I flip flopped between anorexia and bulimia for over fifteen years of my life! That's so many years of being miserable around food. It feels amazing to feel good about food, I will never take that for granted. And if it means I don't have the perfect bod, then so be it. It's going to take some work to love my current bod, but I will do it. For all I've put my body through, the fact that I'm even alive and seemingly healthy is reason enough for me to really give the old bod a pat on the back at the very least.
I am so sorry I went on and on like that, and it's not even vegan related really. I guess I needed to say that, and you guys are like my friend, or sister, or cousin or whatever. That person that you share your AhHa moments with. Anyway, after all that body shaming I did to myself yesterday, I didn't really feel like cooking, so I found a bag of chicken-less nuggets and had those for dinner. Like a sad kid, which is what I was yesterday!
|They looks scarily real!|