Today's Mofo prompt is yet another choice. Tacos or burritos? People are very passionate about both tacos and burritos. I'm in the middle, as usual, I love them both! I do tend to eat burritos more often, they are kind of the perfect hand held food, and you can fit a lot of stuff in there! I feel like a burrito has a better chance of being a complete package. You can fit rice, tofu or beans, and lots of veggies. So if I had to pick one of these two things to eat, I guess I would choose a burrito!
I wish I had a picture of a gorgeous burrito that I made for dinner last night, but I didn't eat dinner! I don't want to be a Debbie Downer on the last few days of Mofo, but I am having a bit of a personal crisis. It's not Dylan, so that's a relief. I'm going through a somewhat bad breakup. I'm very scared because I haven't yet found a job, and I am super worried about life. If it were just me, I wouldn't be so worried because I've gone through a lot in my life, but it's not just me, and I have my fur family to worry about. I fear that I am going to have to live a vegan's worst nightmare and take a job at some fast food place. I have never had to work in fast food, and I sure don't want to now, but I don't know what else to do. I am very scared right now, and to be honest I haven't really been able to do much more than cry for the last couple of days. Moving back to Seattle doesn't seem like the greatest idea anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love Seattle, but it's so expensive, and I am on the low end of the wage spectrum. The laptop I have been using is his, because my laptop had a virus, and my now ex-boyfriend made the computer unusable when he attempted to "fix" it. So I don't even know how much longer I will be able to have access to a computer since he made it clear he's coming at some point to get his "stuff" which means his laptop, since there is nothing else of his here. When this happens, I guess I can go the library and blog, but it will be weird. I'm someone who like peace and quiet when I'm writing, or reading. But I will do my best to fight through any weird social anxiety I may have. It might sound goofy, but this blog is very important to me, and I'm very proud of myself for starting it, and I love it so much. It made me realize that I really enjoy writing, and I've even taken a few free classes at the library on writing! The library near my apartment has all kinds of free classes! I know that I must love to write if I braved a classroom environment, which I am deadly afraid of. So, I guess I'm getting off track here, sorry stress and bad sleeping equal a brain fry.
I'm sorry this has been not much to do with Mofo, but as I've mentioned before, life can get in the way, and I want to be honest about my life. Plus, I don't have a whole lot of humans to talk to about how I'm feeling, so this blog is like I'm talking to a friend!
I would appreciate any good luck vibes sent my way because things are looking bleak right now. But the good news is that this relationship needed to end. No one should ever be with someone who makes them feel bad about themselves, and that's what was happening to me. We all deserve to be loved, and respected, and we all deserve to be listened to. I once commented that it hurt my feelings that he doesn't listen or seem interested when I talk, and he told me it's because he isn't interested in what I'm talking about. He has sated that veganism does not interest him, he doesn't care about politics or world events, and he doesn't like to read! Like anything, even a magazine or newspaper!
So, I feel like this is for the best, it's just that I might lose everything I love. Anyway, I'm so sorry for this rambling, crazy blog post!
Hopefully I will be back tomorrow to finish ot the last two days of Mofo with a bang!