Monday, November 14, 2016

Taking Time to Reflect

Reflecting
This picture of Kanye is how I feel right now. I need to reflect a little, and sit with my feelings, so I'm going to continue taking a little break from this blog.
My last post about the election results garnered two interesting comments from two different anonymous people, or it might have been the same person, who knows. One mentioned that they were here for food posts, not politics and the other agreed, and also mentioned being offended by the word dick.
When I started this blog, I just wanted to be part of the vegan movement, and I wanted to share  recipes and food and all of that vegan goodness. I also was very lonely at the time, and living in a city where the amount of racism everywhere, including my adoptive family was so shocking, and overwhelming to me I felt like I was suffocating. Just like living in Seattle became a liberal bubble for me, living in Erie became a hate bubble, and I was starting to forget that kind, reasonable people existed.
I understand people wanting only food pictures and all of that. And I also understand not liking certain words, or not liking any swearing. But, those aren't my issues. When I read blogs, books, watch movies, YouTube etc. I read and watch what I prefer, what appeals to me and makes me feel good. Not everyone is for everyone, that's just a fact of life.
So, for anyone who only wants food pictures, and for anyone who doesn't like the word dick, this isn't the blog for you. I don't mean that in a mean, angry way either. I'm simply saying that there is more to me and this blog than food. And I will never be silent on the state of our world. It's taken me a long time to accept this part of myself. I have had at least a million people in my life reprimand me for not being able to keep my mouth shut. And I've said it to myself. I feel sometimes life is easier for people who just fall back and don't say anything. But that isn't and will never be me.
I feel like in general people are exhausted from this election, and are just trying to accept Trump and hope for the best. But I'm just not there. I'm terrified of how hateful our country is. I'm having nightmares from Erie. So, Like I said earlier I'm taking a break until I feel better, because right now I'm barely eating, let alone thinking about food and pictures and all of that. I guess it's a good thing I chose to sit out of Vegan Mofo this year, because I would really be REALLY struggling to keep up with the prompts!
So, I don't know how long I'll be gone. I might wake up tomorrow feeling amazing and hopeful and full of recipes, I just don't know. But I'm loving all the Mofo posts this year!

19 comments:

  1. hey there!
    I emailed and texted you, girl!!!! HUGS!

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  2. Just try to be good to yourself and not focus on stuff that's outside of your control. You live your life as a decent, compassionate person and that's more than many people are capable of. And as for those two cowardly dicks that posted anonymously, I can't help but think that in the days following the election Trump supporters were trolling the web for phrases like "Dark Days" and randomly commenting on blogs and forums just to kick up some shit. Hang in there. Hug the kitties and hope for a brighter tomorrow.

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    1. Thank you so much. I'm starting to feel a little better. Until I read the news that is! I am hoping for brighter days though.

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  3. I come here for you (and your kitties)... food is just part of it. <3
    Look after yourself.

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  4. You (and your blog) are awesome because you always speak your mind; as you said, anyone who doesn't like what you write, doesn't have to read your blog, simple as that. Take all the time you need; I'll certainly be looking forward to seeing you blogging again when you feel ready! :)

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    1. Thank you so much. I choose to focus on the positive, not the two negative people!

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  5. Look, this is YOUR blog and that means YOU get to decide what you want it to include.
    Obnoxious comments are just part of the internet and honestly have much more to do with the person commenting than you (ie they were in a crappy mood and decided to leave crappy snide comments)

    Take care of yourself and know that there are many of us out here who genuinely care about you and are here for support when you need it. Neglecting your own self care isn't the best way to feel awesome, so please do prioritize regular meals, walks in the sunshine and kitty cuddles :))
    Ttrockwood

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    1. Thanks for the support! I'm finally getting back into self care and I feel a lot better!

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  6. Yes! Yes, yes, yes! This is YOUR space. If people don't like what you are saying they have the option to leave. Nobody can dictate what you write except for you. You are entitled to have an opinion and discuss how you feel. And as Susan stated above, I come here for you. And I love reading whatever it is that you have to say.

    I know it is tough right now but please try to take care of yourself. Make sure you get some meals in and take the time that you need. We'll be here for you when you get back.

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    1. I'm slowly getting back into the self care game, and I'm starting to feel human again.

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  7. Hear! Hear! If people aren't picking up what you're laying down, they can move along. We're here to read your blog, not censor you. Vegans are passionate people. Haters gonna hate.

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    1. Thank you! And thanks for understanding my passion!

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  8. I usually don't comment on blogs, but wanted to let you know that I appreciated your words after the election. They helped me to feel less alone. Thank you.

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    1. Thank you so much! All this support has made me feel less alone, and I'm so glad I could help you! Thankfully we are not alone in how we feel, so that gives me some hope.

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  10. (Sorry, grammatical fix) This is your space and you get to keep it safe for you, and express your hopes and fears about your life, the world, and everything. Oppression exists everywhere, and it's very compassionate to see it and to want to comment on it. You just keep doing what you do!

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    1. Thank you so much! I really appreciate all the support and kind words!

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