|My phone took this picture sideways, sorry!|
Well, my goal is to make the move on Wednesday. All I have to show for my life is crammed into three Trader Joe's bags, and the rest is at the kitty boarding place. So, that makes for a super simple, low maintenance move. Derek will reserve the van today, and that's that. As sacred as I am, I am just so ready to have what's left of my babies home with me. I have a lot of trust to build back up. I am already planning on being the subject of many a murder in my sleep plot lines.
Luckily for me, with my background of switching families, uprooting my whole life, moving many times, etc. I'm probably not as scared about this move as I should be. When I moved to Seattle so many years ago, I knew no one here, had fifty dollars to my name, and I had a garbage bag full of my stuff. That's how classy I was, I had a garbage bag. I've moved up because now I'm using canvas, thank you very much.
As is the case almost always in my life, I am so grateful to my cats. I think if I didn't have them to worry about, I would be tempted to stay in Seattle, and try to make it happen. It would be easy to fall into old patterns, and just settle. And the truth of the matter is that for me, Seattle is too expensive. Seattle is for people who have careers, not jobs. Sure, I could live here if I rented a room, but truth be told, I need my space, and I loathe living with people. I always joked that if I ever got married, I would still keep my own apartment so I could have my space. So, to live in Seattle, it's just a constant struggle, and having to really sometimes make compromises that you don't want to. And, what's the use of living somewhere where you can barely afford to breathe? But, I know that I can NEVER let this happen again. I have to protect my cats better, so I am making myself move forward, not staying stagnant.
I know this sounds crazy, but I really feel like a new me is going to emerge. When I moved to Seattle, and had to figure it all out, I grew as a person. I was able to be me. I learned it was okay to feel the way I felt. That's why even though I loathe the cost of living in Seattle, I will always swell with love for Seattle, because good or bad, I grew and learned so much. So, I feel this excited energy, because I feel like the same thing is going to happen, and I am ready!!!
Derek told me to think of somewhere I want to go to eat that I will miss, and there are so many choices! I'll be back tomorrow with pictures of whatever meal I choose, and then I guess the next time you hear from me I will be in Utah!!!!!