I Got Mail!

As I've mentioned, I'm having a little bit of a hard time. Most days I have the feeling that I bit off more than I can chew. When I moved to Seattle all those years ago, I didn't have any responsibilities other than myself. I was free to stay at youth hostels, couch surf, whatever. But now things are different, and there is more pressure. I'm having a very hard time emotionally as well.  I have a deep sadness in me that I haven't had before. And so much guilt. I so want to go running to a loving family member, who would give some sage advice, and maybe a hug and a glass of lemonade or something. I don't know what normal families do, since I've never really experienced that. I have a loneliness that sometimes is far too overwhelming. I miss my kitties that aren't with me, and not knowing how they are is killing me. I'm fighting to keep my spirits up, but some days it feels like a losing battle.
Yesterday the sadness was almost overwhelming, and then I got a little parcel in the mail, and it was like Christmas on a sweltering, almost one hundred degree day! The parcel was from Caroline who writes the blog Tea and Sympatico. It was full of all kinds of fun stuff, all wrapped, so it really was like Christmas! It's been quite awhile since I've opened a present, so it was extra fun!

My first apron!

I love this cheerful Tshirt!

Best card ever!!!

So many goodies!

Notebooks, a planner, face masks(de-stress to boot. So needed!), pens, post cards, mints, and some of the BEST chocolate I've ever had in MY LIFE!

I am in love with these. I would marry them in a minute. The center is coconut,like really compacted coconut, and it tastes like raspberries, but not gross fake raspberry flavor, but like real raspberries. These are seriously AMAZING!!!!
The kitties got gifts too, and they were super excited! They're happy to have toys that aren't rolled up pieces of paper, Ha ha!

Etta and her yellow ball which is now yellow shreds!

Kanye and her yellow mouse. She carries it around and growls!

And Roxy who has become somewhat of a little diva!

Joan and Afro have been enjoying the new toys as well, they were just still in hiding at the time of this photo shoot! When the mailman knocked on the door, it was like run for cover for them. After all they've been through, who can blame them? But Afro has one toy in particular that she really loves. It's like a little newspaper pillow with catnip, and she carries it all around, and tries to hide it from the others!
This was so thoughtful, and really made my day. The planner that she sent says on the cover, "Always believe something wonderful is about to happen"  I really needed to be reminded of that. I never want to let life make me cynical. I want to learn and grow, but I want to always have some optimism.
Anyway, thanks Caroline, this made my day and also my kitties day!