Something actually went right for once! I was expecting something to go wrong. I was so freaking scared to even walk in to the shelter. And I mean no offense to the Animal Shelter at all, but I hope I never have to see that place again. Like never.
All in all it was pretty easy, although it was much more expensive than I thought. They allowed Derek to adopt three, and I adopted two. All in all we were there for about two hours. First, we couldn't find them all, and on top they had renamed a couple of them. For instance, they had renamed Afro some goofy name that clearly did not match with her looks and personality. And poor Roxie was at PetCo down the street! Afro and Kanye were the first two I saw, and I've never seen anything so beautiful IN MY LIFE. Then, down the hall was Etta, who was so unbelievably happy to see me. She headbutted my hand and was just so sweet. It was such a mixed bag of emotions. I haven't even processed all my feelings yet. I'm sure anyone who is sensitive and emotional understand that feeling of emotional overload. I can handle when it's all happiness, or sadness, or anger, but when it's conflicting emotions, it gets tricky.
They told me at the shelter that usually if someone surrenders an animal, they don't allow the people to re-adopt them. But, they felt that being together was best for the cats. I'm so glad they came to that conclusion, because otherwise this would have been near impossible.
Today I have several open houses with apartments, and we're going to drive around to find more rental signs. I have to try to find smaller apartments that are maybe more willing to give a gal who's been evicted a chance. Unfortunately a lot of the bigger, corporate buildings like where I used to live are pretty much not an option for me.
I know I've talked about Ballard, my absolute FAVE neighborhood in Seattle. I was hoping to find a place there, but over the years Ballard has become slightly gentrified, and you aren't getting a one bedroom for less than $1,500 a month. I'm talking about studios and one bedrooms. It is ridiculous, and also sad. Basically, in Seattle I'm not finding a one bedroom or studio for less than a grand a month. Yikes. I don't know if they're doing this in other cities, but Ballard has built these buildings, and they call them aPODments. Seriously these things are 150 square feet, and they are still close to a grand a month! I seriously question so many things about life. But, anyway I have high hopes that one of these open houses will go well. Like, I have to believe that at this point!
On a vegan food/warning note, after we dropped my babies off at the boarding place, D wanted to grab food. I haven't been eating regularly or healthily in at least a month at this point, but for once I was hungry too. So, we decided to stop at this place called Taco Time. They are kind of like Taco Bell, but more expensive. So, Derek ordered his gross meaty stuff, and I ordered a veggie burrito, minus cheese and ranch sauce. Side note, why would ranch go on a burrito?? The kid in the drive through taking the order seemed to understand. So, we get our food, and go back to D's place. He hands me my burrito, and it has a little sticker that says beef. So, I unwrapped it, opened up the burrito and got to dissecting. They did leave off the cheese and the strange ranch sauce, however the put GROUND BEEF on a veggie burrito! I ordered a veggie burrito, not a meat one where I replaced beans for beef. It is called a veggie burrito on the freaking menu thing. Of course I called to complain, and they're sending me a comp card or something, but I am giving that to Derek. I am done with Taco Time, and fast food at all. This is part of why under normal circumstances I do not eat at restaurants, fast food or otherwise. I have seen too many things in all my years as a server, and I know too many bad habits that occur behind the scenes. I prefer to cook my own food. So, vegans and vegetarians alike, beware of the beef filled vegetarian burritos. I had a similar experience at Taco Bell last week. I kept hearing how vegan friendly they've become, and so we gave it a shot, and I got my crunch wrap supreme minus cheese, but add beef. And my potato soft taco was minus cheese and sour cream, but go ahead and still add the creamy jalapeno sauce. My advice to these places is if you're going to try and reach out to vegans and vegetarians, make sure your staff understands what that means. I had only ever eaten at Taco Bell maybe one time in my life before this, and I will go out of my way to avoid both of these places FOR LIFE.
I want to thank everyone again for all the kind words and support. I am barely making it through this with the support and kind words, I can't imagine facing all of this without. I want to thank everyone for not judging me. I am judging myself, and I will have a hard time forgiving myself for this mess that I made. There is a permanent void in my heart and my family without Chunk, Scrappy and Animal. But I still have something to live and fight for, and I guess that's what matters, and what I need to focus on.
I hope to have some promising news this weekend!