Well, I made it seven days on the island of potato. Yesterday afternoon I just had kind of a meltdown. I could not stomach the thought of another potato filled meal. I just wanted to cry. To be brutally honest, I felt a slight urge to binge, and I haven't felt those urges in years. This potato only diet was taking me to dark places. When I was a little kid my mom was a single mom, and we weren't rich. We were vegetarian, so she would buy eggs and one vegetable for the week, and bless her heart she would try to make different things with the eggs and veg, but still. Ans as an adult I've had no food, some food, and everything in between. I've had to make a bag of lentils, and onion and a carrot be all three meals for a week. In addition I spent many years battling anorexia and bulimia, so the feelings of deprivation were triggering dark feelings and memories. I told myself that I would sleep on it, and see how I felt this morning. When I woke up I still really wanted lentil soup, so that's what I had for breakfast. I feel like seven days of eating potatoes as my main calorie source is nothing to be ashamed of. The cleanse was something I wanted to try mainly because i wanted to feel better, and up until yesterday I did feel better, but at the same time i don't ever want to feel guilty about eating lentil soup! I also started getting that dangerous feeling of obsession with weight loss. I was watching High Carb Hannah's video yesterday, and she mentioned that she had lost three pounds, and so I started wondering if I've lost weight, and even thinking I should do the potato cleanse longer than thirty days! I think when you've dealt with any type of eating disorder or serious body image issues, you have to be really careful with anything detox/cleanse related. You just have to make sure you're not taking it a bit too seriously.
I'm glad I took on the challenge. You have to experience things in order to learn what works for you and what doesn't. I think for me any type of cleanse or detox is best three days or under. I'm also trying to actively work on losing my beer flab, while not getting obsessed with my body, or being lean. I've never in my life had a normal relationship with my body, so I am learning as I go.
Here's what will probably be the last picture of oven fries you see in awhile, it was my dinner last night.
And here is a picture of the best tasting soup EVER!! And it had no potatoes in it!