Ranting and Rolling

I'm sorry for my absence lately. As I mentioned in my last post I got a new job at a grocery store and unfortunately my shifts have been night shifts and I am not a night person. I've been getting off work at midnight, and I have to walk home since the bus doesn't run that late, and I have about a twenty to thirty minute walk. Unfortunately I don't make enough money to take a cab or Uber or Lyft home every night. Not sure what I'm going to do in the winter. So I've been going to sleep around the time I usually wake up. So I am all out of sorts. In addition I've been dealing with some serious depression because I loathe my job. I have always had jobs where I'm on my feet, but standing in one spot cashiering hurts my back so bad. I've never had back problems, but every day about halfway through my shift my back hurts so bad I almost cry. Like I can't even bend down without feeling like I'm stuck. I have to do several downward facing dogs and cat and cow poses when I come home. I'm just really unhappy. So hopefully I will get used to this schedule and be able to have a somewhat normal life again. I'm just tired, worn down and very depressed.
Food wise I've been eating very boring meals. When I get home the last thing I'm thinking about is cooking. I've been eating lots of plain baked tofu dipped in some sort of sauce. The company doesn't give you a paid lunch break, so if you want to take a lunch you have to punch out for thirty minutes, and that takes away two and a half hours from your pay a week, and when you aren't making a lot that is not affordable. So I get two ten minute breaks and I don't like cramming food down in a rush and then having to go back to standing on your feet and dealing with people. Also, this grocery store sells a lot of meat, so I'm unfortunately touching all kinds of packages of dead flesh and it makes me not hungry and very sad.
I have a few food and kitty pictures I wanted to share, but blogger is being weird and not letting me post them. So I guess this is just a catch up/ rant post. Please bear with me, I promise to be back to however normal I was soon. I just have to get used to being up at night.
Hopefully my next post will be full of delicious vegan food and all the kitties!